You are unique!!!

Over today's lunch, I went into a rather interesting discussion with one of my dear friends. It was about a very handsome, smart and charming person's inability to see how good that person really is. It sounds so strange right? That you can be all of those things and not realize it yourself. It is like you have the full right to feel so good about youself, but you don't. Because, you don't see what other people see in you. I believe that every person has something good in them, it is just that we have to learn to see that side and that uniqueness ourselves.

People can tell you that you are pretty, but that doesn't really matter in the end, does it? If you don't feel pretty within yourself, you will feel miserable, and if you feel miserable your life will become horrible, and then you will end up thinking of why you didn't see yourself as pretty, because then that life that just passed you by would have been worth living! So, please feel pretty and stay happy, and if someone does tell you that you're pretty...- Use it to boost your ego!

Someday, when I get the opportunity I am going to tell that handsome person how good he really is.

Say muuu to the word!

So, now we are in the year of the cow, representing solemn hard work and prosperity. Muuu, is what I have to say :P It did start pretty well, but it had a rather bad ending. Like, I mentioned we went out to eat at...Forno Romano (the weather didn't allow any long distance journey), and everything was really delicious and so on. However, my sis ordered some kind of salami pizza, which I considered to eat (lucky I didn't!). She ended up food poisoned, and puked the whole night...-.- I mean, what if I really had taken a pizza like that? Then I would lay so much behind in school! Since I've started the IB my life is like a poor factory worker in China - litteraly - everything is working out perfect, but it's completely dependent on my health, just like all of those other people...If just a small change interfers, everything becomes a mess. Nevertheless, she is becoming better...

Oh, and before I am off for my beauty sleep...some pictures from the beginning of 牛年

Sis - now I say "don't eat that, don't eat it! I'm serious!!!"

CNY's dress-for-success :)

CNY tomorrow!!!

Ooh, as life goes on, so does the years. I am so excited for Chinese New Year tomorrow! Haha, I know I am not a pure Chinese, and we usually don't celebrate big time like they do down there...But I am half-Chinese and that means that I have the completely right to celebrate half-CNY here in Sweden. xD

My family does not really prepare anything else than ourselves the day before the big day. You see, mother has started noticing that eating out on days like these are much more chill than she spending 5 hours in the kitchen, preparing for a less than 30 minutes meal (even though it turns out to be better than any other food, most of the time). I am glad she realized that, because then we have more time to spend as a family...Which is the most important part of everything. However, the most funny part with CNY is to decide what new clothes to wear. =) Which is also a very important feature. I think I quite have figured out my outfit, but it will remain a secret until tomorrow, hehehehehe...Gosh, it sounds like I am going to show up in a gown to school...-.-

Haiz...dreaming is over, now I have to get back to French grammar...-.-

sis and mama at Pangor Island, last summer

Please, wake me up -.-

This fall, I am honestly considering to do the Pre-IB again or starting at Thoren Business School (Uppsala's sloppiest school). But, who really cares?! At least they have what I can't have.

I know this year isn't suppose to be about the negative and I am sorry for taking out my mini-depression (that's actually tremendously big, so please if you have the number to a good shrink...-.-) on this little poor blog. The thing is, that I just cannot and do not want to believe that I can't choose to study business and management in year 2...It feels like my dreams are slipping through my fingers and getting further and further away from me.

Play with me

Why you talking all that talk Who you trying to impress Think you better check your style That might have worked beforebut I ain't having it Show me that you got the touch Hear the words that I don't say Gotta read between the lines You gotta learn this song

Cause I wanna be played
like a sweet guitar

Played like a slow jam in the dark

Gotta find the groove

You know what to do to get to meI wanna be played like a violin

Make the strings talkwith your finger tips

Never go to fast

Gotta understand

The way I need too be played

So much drama, girl!

Ooh, I don't know where to start. The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was truly a Halleluja moment! Like I said earlier, I am not exactly a VIP person at the cinemas, and when I actually show up there - I never really go for drama. Romantic comedies (as the girlish girly girl I am) has always suited me perfect, and sad stories, horror stories and looooooong love stories have never really made any kind of impact on me. I don't know if it is because I am becoming older or if I am just in a period of change, but let me just tell you; I have never ever been into the genre drama - until now.

Anyhow, if you read the comments that the magazines and newspapers say about Benjamin Button, you might end up a bit confused "ageing backwards", I mean WHAT'S THAT? And they might even say that it is something missing in between the lines or some other nonsense...But I say, GO SEE IT! I didn't really know myself what it was all about, but I'm so happy I saw it because it truly was an amazing movie...and Mr. Pitt was devine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To the movies...

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button is the movie I will watch later today with Vicki. I can't even remember when was the last time I went to the cinema, isn't that funny? People in my age tend to go to the cinema like 5 times a month (ok, perhaps not eveyone, but you get the idea) and then there's me; with my 1-2 times a year -.- LOL...

And the reason why I am going is because we have these movie gift vouchers that are soon going to be expired. Even more jeje, right?! :P Actually, I wanted to see the Revolutionary Road with Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio, but since it doesn't air until two weeks Brad Pitt can cover, haha...

Tell you later how the film was. Toodels!

My Romeo and Juliet moment

I've always wondered if dreams have something to do with faith. That it's the reason why we dream what we do. Ever since I can remember my mum has told me that if I dream a bad dream about someone I should never tell that person about it, because it may come true. The first time she told me that I was so scared of going to bed every night, wishing so badly not to dream of someone around me getting hurt. But then I realized that that wasn't really going to be an issue.

Usually, I never remember my dreams (means I must sleep quite well, according to sis). However, the one I had Tuesday night can't get out of my system, so I've decided just to tell it. I mean, it must had meant something if I remembered it...until today! Everything was somehow so real and the main scenes (especially the one in the end I remember very clearly :D)...Anyhow, this is how it goes:

Christina (my English teacher) had told us to set up the play Romeo and Juliet, thereafter perform it for the entire school on some event before holidays. I get to be Julia (LOL...I know, right?!) and Mr. Cute somehow gets all the votes for playing Romeo. all the sudden we're backstage. it's suppose to be at our school's assembly hall, but this stage is magnificant and there are seats forming a big C all around it. Soon, every seat is taken and everyone is ready to watch IB1C performing their version of the devine Romeo and Juliet. I'm behind the curtains getting ready. Tarane is doing my makeup (working that eyeliner on me :P), Shill (?) fixes my hair and Lewar telling me that I should remember my lines by now. The thing is - I haven't practised...at all. all the sudden mini-Maria, Sabina and Ric Sims (!!!) are in the picture, telling me I'll do great. Then, I'm out. I do absolutely nothing right, but the audience is very satisfied. And then there's the ending. The ending when I'm not really dead, but Romeo thinks I am. That's the best part, because the kiss before we both die is soooooo great. After the play, that was a total success, I'm given Aladdin (assorted chocolates) from Minna (!) in my class, before ending up in the arms of Mr. Cute again...

Crap, that's when we die again! Or he dies, or I don't know. We can't be together. It just wasn't meant to be.

I am not a gangster mum

Yesterday, mother and I was doing a quick shopping round at Gränby Centrum and I found an ubercute leather jacket at HM. It looked almost like the model that the enormous blogger Kenza has, and I just fell inlove (which I noticed happens quite often -not with men though! Haha)...

However, mother totally had to ruin my new crush by saying "Don't you think you look like a gangster wearing that?" My answer was "Nooo", but then all these images of punks banging their heads to Linkin Park...That was when I started to get a bit worried. But I am not a punk, and REALLY no one would call me one either, so actually I have nothing to be worried about. But to be on the safe side, some extra Hello Kitty stuff can't go wrong, can they? :P Hahaha...

Besides that, my head is spinning when I think of the physics test we have tomorrow. We got an exercise paper with questions to work on during the Christmas break, so that we would have more time to understand what we are actually doing. Honestly, I am not good in physics so when I got to the question: From how many times higher would you need to drop something on the moon for the fall to take the same time as here on earth? It was totally blank, but smart as I am I came up with checking the key. Perhaps, it wasn't that smart after all. Question is stated in the wrong way, it should be: How many times higher would you need to drop something for the drop to take the same time as on the moon?, it said. Aha, this gives me --- nothing! -.-. See why I am not that into physics now?

Now I'm gong to take my shower. Ciao!

Last day ;(...

Earlier today I received an e-mail from my dearest mini-Maria, who is still in her hometown (Kiruna, in the northern part of Sweden). I miss her very much indeed and can't wait to see her tomorrow, and all of my other adorable girlfriends. However, in the end of this cute e-mail she asked me the question that I've just never seemed to figure out. "Do you know why you never seem to have enough time, when you have more time than usually? I don’t get it, but unfortunately that’s the way it is, at least for me…" Until today, that question is so amazing because you never have an answer to it. I mean school starts tomorrow and I am still wondering. -Meanwhile I am also slowly panicking. We have an English lesson tomorrow and I cannot fin my Romeo and Juliet! I have never lost anything from school and now I lose a book! In the IB!!! -.-...

Besides that, sis and I met up mother in town for lunch. We just needed some sweet time before tomorrow's reality...

Mother and I at Dragon Palace

Mamma Mia they are good!

I can still recall our last summer

I still see it all.

Walks along the seine, laughing in the rain

Our last summer

Memories that remain

I never thought I would say this out loud but Colin Firth, Pierce Brosnan and Stellan Skarsgård make me happy...x)

Cake, Thai food and water -a big NO NO

God morning little blog! Long time since I ever wrote a morning post (if I ever have written one ^^), but today I have to if I want to blog any at all. Because today is unfortunately study day, but it's something I have to do so I better just get it over with...

January 1st was the greatest and the worst as well. I even made another vow...-.- : Never overeat and then drink lots of water afterwards... -I not only felt pregnant, I looked like I was expecting any minute and damn it hurt A LOT!

Mum had bought this lovely cake for the first day of the year x)

Amazing Thai had great food, but the feeling afterwards wasn't all that great...

Me and sister before swelling up like balloons -otherwise we had a very lovely evening xD